To understand my full story, you have to know what it is like to have a 3 or 4 year old little girl come to you and pray for you.  You sit still and listen and look at the little girls mom and you end up praying the mother has the cancer and not the little girl.  Then when you talk to the mother you find out it is the little girl there for radiation treatment.  Holding back tears is impossible, holding back the flood can be done, but the tears will run down your cheeks and there is nothing you can do.   Here is the story Kaiser wrote about me.